💔 We were controlled 💔 Christine and Meri recount the DAYS OF BEING CONTROLLED by Kody 😔

“We were told that if we suffered, we were blessed.”
That’s how Christine and Meri Brown – two of Kody Brown’s former wives – describe the haunting emotional prison they lived in for decades under his control.

In the latest Sister Wives episode, both women finally open up about the truth: their lives inside polygamy were built on lies, control, and manipulation – and they didn’t even realize how deep it went until after they escaped.

“We weren’t allowed to feel.”

Christine sits with her new husband, David Woolley, in one of the most emotional conversations ever shown on the series. For the first time, she faces the reality that her entire emotional life was controlled – not only by Kody, but by the cult-like belief system that told her suffering made her a better person.

David gently tells her that she and her children used movies and fiction to escape their trauma. Instead of processing their pain, they ran away from it – because that’s what they were taught to do.

“You can’t live through movie quotes,” David says. “You have to feel your emotions.”

Christine’s reaction says it all. She’s realizing that she never truly learned to feel – because in their world, women weren’t allowed to feel. Jealousy? Anger? Heartbreak? Those emotions were called “sins.” Women were told to bury them, to smile, to “endure to the end.”

Meri’s heartbreak: “Everything about me was wrong.”

Meanwhile, Meri opens up her old boxes – filled with her wedding dress, old letters, and memories of her doomed marriage. As she goes through her past, she confesses that she once believed suffering was holy.

“They told us if we suffer, we’ll be blessed. I thought I was living polygamy wrong. I thought I was woman wrong.”

Meri reveals how she blamed herself for everything – for being jealous, for not having more children, for not being enough. She believed her pain was proof of faith.

It’s a haunting confession that exposes what many have called the dark theology of control behind their lifestyle: women are told to accept pain as divine purpose, while men are told they are spiritual leaders.

The shocking past: Janelle was once married to Meri’s brother!

One of the most jaw-dropping revelations comes when Meri admits that her long-standing tension with Janelle wasn’t just about polygamy. Years before marrying Kody, Janelle was married to Meri’s brother, Adam!

When that marriage ended, and Janelle later joined the Brown family as Kody’s second wife, Meri was forced to watch her former sister-in-law become her “sister wife.”

“Wouldn’t you be weirded out if your sibling’s ex married your husband?” she laughs painfully.

Even though Janelle tried to be kind, the emotional tension was undeniable. Meri reveals she never had time to process her feelings before Kody suddenly announced he was marrying Janelle – just months after another courtship fell apart.

Christine vs. Janelle: The divide grows

While Meri and Christine are now confronting the harms of polygamy, Janelle continues to defend it.
She insists that the others are “painting with a broad brush,” and that not every polygamist marriage is harmful.

But to many fans, Janelle’s defense only highlights how deep the conditioning still runs.
Christine and Meri are finally breaking free, unpacking their trauma, and learning to feel again – while Janelle still struggles to see the system for what it was: control disguised as faith.

“Maybe we don’t need to suffer to be blessed.”

Christine’s husband David offers the most profound statement of the night:

“What if we don’t have to endure to the end? What if we can enjoy to the end?”

That one line sums up everything these women are finally realizing – that happiness, not suffering, is sacred.

For decades, they believed the lie that pain was holy. Now, they’re learning that peace is the real blessing.

As Meri says through tears,

“We don’t need to endure the pain. We just need to learn how to go through it.”